Because

For the past few days I have missed him more than most days. Driving to work on the weekend I remembered the day the boys arrived and I gave some thought about how we didn't thank God. Because:
It was the longest most stressful pregnancy a daughter needs to have.
It didn't work the way we wanted it to
It hurt
They hurt and we couldn't help
We wanted to believe but somehow the believing didn't help

Driving to the Mater I thought how we held him, we spoke to him and we made promises that we would never forget him. In the car I was grateful because:
We all held him
We all got invited into that delivery room to share this life
We have two kids kind enough to consider their family also need to have a little bit of Christopher too
I remembered their kindness to us their family and I was grateful.
Because of that kindness thank you Kara and Dan for the memories burned into our minds of your other son. The one who doesn't get colds and coughs all night, the one who doesn't fret about night terrors. The one who God chose to lay in the arms of angels till we have the pleasure of his company again.
Remembering hurts, it brings back the tears and the pain that sometimes sits heavy on the heart but who would we be without the special memories of those we never want to forget.
Christopher I miss you baby